Can I change? Part 16 (Story of dad

Now that all three live in the same home they had some fights, Lots of pride to broken down. They might of had good moments. There was time that flesh won. When their tongues where as though they were set on fire by hell. They were not building up by tearing down. They yell out saying things they never thought they would say.There emotions battled, they didn't wanted to be broken, did they dear to be humbled? Again and again they acted out of anger and not love. One day her and father were fighting. Stop she yelled, Stop stop talking to me. You can't stop us they yelled back. Their anger was building up. They wanted their point to be made. She was boiling inside. She yelled out with the most wicked words. and ran off to her room.There she talked with God. I will not say I am sorry. Didn't hear what he said. He hurt me. But deep inside she knew need to say she was sorry. Then it hit her, why I am not really sorry? Why I am not weeping over this sin? I need to be humble, Help me lord to love this man. He says things that upset me, how can I let go? after hours of fighting with her own flesh she finally came out to say she was sorry. She saw at that time, her prayer was to pray to hate this sin, of her words to her father. That she could use them to honor him and lift him up. But what a battle we face, with our flesh, how we want to do this, but do the other things. It was a growing to put to death the flesh. It was walk of falling and getting back up. She poured out her can I change, can you bring deep true repentances in my heart?