One day getting to the wedding

I went to a wedding this past weekend. really didn't know what expect. as always Gods grace is with me. I was thankful for God reminded me how faithful he is, and how he is at out with me or without me. He doesn't need me, but it he allows me to take part.

talking with old friend was a blessing.

There was No planning, I just went. Not that I didn't want to plan. My mind was to scattered to do some planing before hand. I was sure glad I wasn't part of wedding what stress that would add. Just getting was alot for me.

so before I left to flagstaff, I met with a Hedi from Church. she has been a blessing to me. I had some tea as we taked. God had been showing me that my heart towards my health is cold and lazy and lack of trust in God.

I just don't care. Sinful and I want to hate this sin, But I don't. I listen to self, charlene just give up. What do I mean by just give up? That when I am tride I don't eat, I don't take the time to eat right. I just don't. or listening to this lazy heart and stop fighting for my time. By letting my blood sugar going high, it often makes me wast time. There is no true repentnce in my heart over this. I truly need God to brake me.

When getting to Flagstaff, I got on the city bus and held to my friends house. It was a good bus trip. But when I got to the street, I went the wrong way. I walked up to the end of the street, at that piont I felt my blood sugar feeling low, it was 9pm and I was alone. I started to get worked up. I tried to wave a car down. But they just went by. Another car started to come out I ask them where the street was they pionted in the right way. I was so tride and really didn't think I was going to make it. But It was God good testing to bring me to praise him in it.

They welcomed me in, and later I had a most wonderful talk with a young lady a little older then me. That just moved back to Az. I was sitting there, not really feeling to go and talk. They had a moive on, I really care much to watch it so I sat at the table. When they lady came in. I think I said hi. I offer her to sit down, and God then took over. I know it wasn't me. What good is there in me? God had me share my trail of Tuscon, How I hated it when I frist came. And how God has changed my heart. It really is about our veiw. God dosn't take the hardship away, because that often the means to make us more like him. And he is a faithfull and trust worthy God. He can meet our needs. Knowing who God is and who we are in Him also allows us to sumit without fear. "perfect love cast out all fear"

I just share what was on my heart. There was such a sweetness in her. This is always amazing to me. How those who we have never met and yet we can love them so deep. after that one talk God placed her on my heart.

Her husband told me that God spoke through me, Praise God that I could of been used by him

Do I really want to be used by God? what would that life look like?

I truly need the Grace of God.

Help dear God.